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Getting pretty excited about the baby goats coming up.

But today I have to tell you a story. Here is a goat – he is a wether. And he is in my yard.
What happened was a couple of years ago I had a girl want to come buy a goat because she had two goats and rehomed them with someone else and one of the goats died so she took the remaining goat back. The goat was lonely so she wanted a companion goat.
She came over to meet the goats and talked my ear off – I ended up selling her a mini-niubian doe for $50. Crazy – fast forward 18 months – this girl wants to move and can’t have her animals anymroe – would I take my goat back – sure I would! Question 2 – would I also take the wether that was her buddy and maybe find him a good home? Uh, ok…

Fast forward another 6 months or so. Guess what – there is a lady in the neighborhood looking for a companion goat. I email the original girl and tell her I might have found a home for the goat – she freaks out – calls me – crying. This poor goat has had four homes already and lost his brother and now his girlfriend, and the lady will probably feed alfalfa and kill him and he will die like his brother. Good grief. I tell her I will talk to the lady looking for a goat and see if she is a good home or not.

Come to find out this lady used to live in my town and she raised goats for twenty years or something. She moved to North Carolina and Took her goats with her!
Then when she moved back she brought the remaining goats back. The goat she has is 14 years old. What a perfect place for this guy in my yard – right?
Gosh I hope so – I need the extra pen – I didn’t realize that taking this goat in would be such a long term emotionally fraught endeavor.

I just want what is best for the animal – I think being in a place with a lady who loves goats would be a fine choice. In my yard there are almost thirty goats – not a whole lot of one on one time there – and when I do have one on one time with goats – it is milking, or playing with babies or taking the boys to breed – and this wether doesn’t do any of that. And hay ain’t cheap.

I am now about 3/4 of the way through with the Quran. Other then the people being weirded out about the idea that God has a Son. And not understanding the idea of an atoning sacrifice – so far I can not find that much to dislike about it. Of course much like the first time I read through the Bible – I don’t really understand what was happening historically at the time of it’s writing – and I will also tell you this – it ain’t no history book. It is more like Psalms or Proverbs – trying to reinterate the same basic points over and over – I can not see how anyone could understand the Quran without reading the Bible first. For example – it says that Pharoah refused to believe in Moses – so God drowned Pharoah and his army. Really…that is the whole story of Exodus. The people of Sodom were evil so the angels came and threw wet, flaming clay at them and killed them…no real details.

- Also this weekend we picked up a new baby goat and borrowed one from a friend to keep her company. So we are bottle feeding two babies right now. Our first babies are due in 18 days. The little girl is going to be a 4-H show goat for Danny – she is our first goat with blue eyes – her dad’s name is Luke Skywaker – Danny named her Ahsoka Tano (she is a feisty character from the clone wars)

- On the sex ed front – my sister bought Breaking Dawn for me the other day – Lots of anatomy in that movie. Also goes to show that if your uterus is made of adamantium you need a vampire to do a C-section with his teeth or you will never get that baby out. Danny sat with his back to the TV for all the kissing. Although it was a little over the top it did reveal a few things. 1. Some people wait until they are married. 2. People often have sex on their honeymoon 3. Sleeping with a girl one time is enough to affect you for the rest of your life. 4. Making a baby requires two people, and it is good to be on the same page as your partner. 5. Pregnancy affects people permanently. 6. and Danny’s imput when asked if he learned anything – Marriage and relationships can be very dramatic. yes they can.

Ok time to get a milk bottle for those kids. See ya later

I am beginning to see and I do not like it.

This is a long post and it sucks donkey in the worst way.
I hate that it exists.

Over the past few months (maybe years – but I wasn’t seeing it then) I have been coming across little bits of information. A lot of pieces that did not fit. It is like going to the eye doctor and having them slowly dial in your perscription…blurry, fuzzy and then BAM! Razor sharp. Except for a year or so ago – I did not want to see clearly…I still have mixed feelings.
Aww that is a lie. I do not have mixed feelings – I have awful feelings. Sick feelings.

But too damn bad – moving on.

Here are the things I have been reading lately:

Rape of Palenstine by William Ziff
http://www.amazon.com/Rape-Palestine-William-Bernard-Ziff/dp/0837126398

And obviously the Protocols of the Elders of Zion – to stomach my way through them at first I just mentally replaced the word Zionist with Elite – and it worked out.

Then the other day Danny and I were studying Atoms and Electrons and I went to look up Uranium pictures because I wanted him to see how many electrons it had and why it was unstable and used for weapons. I am warning you now – do NOT do an image search for uranium unless you want horrid nightmares. There is a doctor, Mohammed Daud Miraki, doing reasearch in Afghanistan on our military’s use of depleated uranium as munition heads and all of the birth defects that are resulting from it. And the rape upon rape being commited. The whole thing was so sick. He has a website here is a link to a page that describes the horrors with out the pictures – but the pictures are on the website also, so I am warning you now – if you click around – you might regret it..

http://www.afghanistanafterdemocracy.com/page11.html

I know I have read about how there was a huge rise in birth defects in Fallujah after we were there also. But I just kinda thought – nah – that can’t really be true.

Do you see where this is headed? All this time I was thinking oh the zionist thing is silly, our country is not really run like that. But the amount of evil I am seeing here is too much to be dismissed or overlooked.
Then some guy that my husband met at the pizza place while watching the game started e-mailing my husband at work. Which normally would be fine except this guy is sending along all kinds of anti-government stuff and my husband works for the local huge areospace company which is basically the same thing as working for the government. My husband just forwarded the things to me without clicking on any links.

So Monday the guy from the pizza place linked me to a website – I sent him an email saying stop sending stuff to my husband at work – just send them to my person e-mail and I will tell my husband what it is about – because Lord knows my husband will not sit here at the computer and read blogs for hours on end.
He linked me to a boring article about social security – whatever – like I care about that…but on the side bar there was this huge essay here is a link:
http://realitybloger.wordpress.com/2010/06/11/zionism-101-the-complete-story/

Let me give you an excerpt, because I did not want to read it at first – I was just about all zionist-ed out at this point..

But before we begin, I want to deeply stress the fact that Zionist’s do not care about the good Jewish people. They are cattle to them, just as much as the rest of the Gentiles on Earth; we are the Goyim. Opposing Zionism is not in any way opposing real Jews. They are not at all synonymous, though many Jews are brainwashed into the Zionist movement. Also, there are countless Jews whom are vehemently opposed to Zionism and even to the state of Israel. And there are many websites, like: Jews Against Zionism and Jews Against Israel to underscore this divide. So please read this essay without passing judgment on the Jewish race itself, for Americans aren’t the only culture that can be stupid enough to be fooled into supporting murder and genocide. Remember that, for we are all sheep to Rothschild created Zionist elite. And it is important to understand that the word “Jew” in many of the below quotes is not referring to the Jewish race as a whole, but to the Zionist cult that has risen up and embedded themselves within the Jewish society, using the Jewish people as fodder, and hiding within their culture so that they can name anyone who opposes them as an anti-Semite (or anti-Jew).

This came after I had read through the thirty pages of religuous hoo-ha at the Well Trained mind Fourm linked by V last week. Basiclly it was thiry pages of the Jewish ladies telling the other people why no one can celebrate holidays but the Jews – and I came away very sad and lost feeling.
The general consensous was that if you have a church with a boat load of Christian tradition you won’t be looking for the real biblical holidays that belong only to the Real Jews and no one else. Basically you have your thing and we have ours so buh-bye. And they seem like they would be okay with the celebrating of the holidays as long as you make sure there is no messiah references in there. Because what they really hate is the mixing of the holy with the profane. so there.
Nevermind if you think the early chruch fathers were wrong.
Basically I see Matthew 23 – Woe to you guys – you are too screwed up to get into the kingdom so you are gonna try to screw it up for everyone else too.

In Part two of that Zionist link – the guy starts going individually about the top guys in government and how they are all zionists here is an intersting (sorry it is also a little long) excerpt from his portion on Eric Holder – attorney general:

Here are highlights of Holder’s speech – full of praise for ADL – and misrepresentations concerning the new hate law and the alleged “epidemic of hate” it claims to address.

“You – the members of the Anti-Defamation League – and I go way back. I first began convening meetings with members of the ADL in the early 90′s when I served as the United States Attorney in Washington, D.C. . . At that time I expressed my deep appreciation for the fact that you always have served as indispensable allies in some of the most important work our government does. And now, tonight, I once more have the opportunity to stand in solidarity with you, and to thank you for your constant, steadfast work to create a better country. A country free of discrimination; a country free of violence; a country free of hate. The Obama Administration could ask no better partner than the Anti-Defamation League as we jointly strive to attain the ideals of equal opportunity, equal rights, and equal justice for all. Members of the ADL – I salute you.”

Equal rights for all? That’s not what Holder said in testimony before the Senate Judiciary Committee this spring. He asserted that the hate bill does not protect Christian ministers, whites, heterosexuals, policemen and members of U.S. military. Only favored groups, he said, such as homosexuals, blacks, Latinos, Jews, Muslims, and women will benefit under this new law:

In Holder’s speech to the ADL he continues this charade, asserting that under America’s new hate law “we will also continue to defend vigilantly the civil rights of all people in this country and prosecute criminal acts discrimination wherever we find them.” “The new law expands the list of protected categories beyond race, color, religion or national origin, and for the first time, allows the federal government to prosecute violence undertaken because of the actual or perceived gender, gender identity, sexual orientation, or disability of any person.”

Holder gives every impression, as ADL did through 19 years of hyping their hate bills to state and federal legislators, that all Americans are protected under hate laws according to “race, color, religion, or national origin.” In reality, ADL never intended any of its hate laws in America – or throughout the world – to protect anyone except those groups ADL considers victims of white, Christian, male, heterosexual civilization.
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Holder says, “The stubborn persistence of anti-Semitism saddens me” What is anti-Semitism? ADL’s Office of Global Anti-Semitism in the U.S. State Department says “anti-Semitism” means any “strong criticism” of Israel or its leaders, or claims that the Jews had Christ killed. Holder says any such anti-Semitic “hate speech” even as “a casual joke made in private when the speaker thinks no Jewish person is listening,” is very, very bad. It “should scald the conscience of every American.” He also promises that Muslims will be vigorously protected under America’s new hate law, just as they are in Canada, Britain, France and Australia.

So if you criticize zionist/elite which are basically working for HaSatan- they flip it around all call you an anti-semite. The most evil type of person hater in the world – even if that is the farthest thing form the truth. It is like a global supersized version of the affirmative action laws – if you don’t want to hire a black person because they are not qualified – you are a racist and discriminating.
If I want to reject running around the world and destroying babies and families and cultures in the name of democracy – I am an anti-semite. I am only on page 167 inthe Rape of Palenstine (you can read it free on-line) but the only reason the English let Israel exist was so they could have a foothold in the Middle east – no one cared about that piece of ground for a long time. and hten they came in and said – here ya go Jewish folks help us win WWI and it is yours – and as soon as they put the Jewish people there – the english started antagonizing the arabs into wanting it also. Then you have WWII where the damn zionist cause all kinds of misery for Germany because they control all the damn money – so the Germans treat the poor regular jews the same way that our country treated the Japanese during the war. Those regular God fearing Jews that have nothing to do with the zionist evil people. Maybe a lot of regular Jewish people died (and the article goes into the accuracy of the holocoust also) But the zionist folks were not harmed in the making of this paradigm. Who wants regular God-fearers running around making them look bad?
It is like a wolf in sheeps clothing – except how did the wolf get a nice fleece to wear? by killing the sheep that used to own it. And now we have a whole flock of wolves that the whole world is afraid of. And very few real sheep left.
One more very important note – to understand this fully – you also have to know that the Arab League is also zionist – isn’t that great? They are two sides of the same coin making all kinds of problems, killing all kinds of people so that the people will finally say – Enough! Lets just have one group rule the whole freaking planet! The Zionist Evil League of Freaking Evil. Stunningly well played – no?

So when you see people crying that the world has abandoned Israel and the Jews. That is a lie. The people who run the world are evil, and I do hate them. Their only mission is to roam the earth looking to destroy and steal hearts form Elohym and confuse people into hating people that love God whole heartedly. Dividing people so they will hate and kill each other, and ignore the real source of evil. And if they have infected the good land of Israel with a cancer (that looks to be the case) oh how we need the Good Physician to make it right.

Sorry about this ladies – I have been inching my way into this freezing lake slowly hating it the whole time and I just threw you into the deep end.

I am mad and I am sick and I am sad. and that is why.

Also there is a bunch of stuff that I have been into lately that has my stomach churning – in the nauseous, horror stricken way.

I am unhappy about it.

It ties in with the Protocols things, and the long religious thread that V linked to last week.
Soem stuff I picked up from the dumbing Down of America site. And some information from other sources closer to home.

I am trying to hammer it out. but I am angry. And sad. and frustrated. Confused. Irritated.
Did I mention unhappy? Oh yeah I did. A lot of that too.

Homefront news – I am getting rid of the dogs – the boxers – they have three weeks to find a home, or I am taking them to be put down. Yes that sucks but they are repeat offenders in the crime of bird killing – chickens, ducks, guineas. I have no doubt that if they got ahold of a cat or a goat I would be in deep, deep regret that I kept them around long enough for that to happen.

The old man Buddy is fine – he lives on a chain and is too old to even bother dirt. Banjo – although he is a bit of a sissy – at least he doesn’t eat our other animals. And as far as home protection goes – Banjo has the job under control.

On Monday the baby was in the front yard and Banjo was napping near by – he startled and went to barking in his insane way. I went out – looked around, couldn’t see anything. Repremendid him a bit. came inside looekd out the back window to see if the other dogs had taken point on something- no they were chasing a guinea around their pen.
I rushed out to save it. Got one dog clipped to the fence – the poor bird made for the dog house. I could keep the other dog away long enough to get the poor thing out. We brought it inside and treated it wounds. I was pretty happy that we saved it because these were the babies that my dad hatched out and he lost so many when they were babies. Only two survived and were just getting to maturity. We went outside to let it go back with the flock and when I came back in to look out the window again, my heart stopped – the pen was full fo blood and feathers – the damn dogs had got the other young guinea. I guess it hopped over the fence looking for it’s friend.
I was beyond angry.
Those stupid freaking dogs.
They don’t do anything for me but eat food.
And Daniel gets nagged every single day about cleaning up after them.
They are mindess twits.

you might aske why I even have them to begin with.
Well when I married my husband he had a boxer – him and his wife used to raise them.
She was a good ole girl, who had done everything with his kids growing up and we knew she was getting to the end of her days so we got a boxer for Danny when he was 18 months old. I trained her to do all kinds of tricks, we took her places. She was a great dog. But my husband couldn’t be happy with just having a great dog. He had to make money also. So he wanted to breed her. Breeding dogs nowadays is not as easy as it used to be.
But we found someone selling an intact male that was good quality. We brought him home. Except he was an idiot. A sweet idiot. But just not too bright. And he didn’t really belong to anyone – I had my Buddy, Danny had his Ginger and this guy Charlie was like the third wheel. He was already a year and a half old and not really been socialized. He was nice enough, but human attention just gets him to be too hyper to think. But he made nice puppies and my husband was happy. A year and a half later, my husband wanted to have another litter. Ok fine. He wanted to keep a female – and this is the one he picked. Sure she is pretty – but dumb.
I did not like her. I did not want to train her. My husband picked her, but he just assumed that she would be the great dog that Ginger was. Nope. Not even.
I don’t mean that she is actually stupid. She is smart enough, just that I do not care for her.
I never bonded with her. And every time she tears open one of my dad’s birds he practically has a heart attack. I do not need that in my life.

oh boy.
no kidding.

Stopped by to say hi to my muslim friend on Thursday and he says he printed something out for me – I said – well go get it!

What does he bring out but the Protocols of the Learned elders of Zion. Cah-Rap!
I roll my eyes at him – he says you have heard of this? I said yup.
He says you have read it before? I say nope
He says well you are gonna read it now. I say nothing, but take the papers.

So I read it – if you have not heard if it – these papers according to wikipedia are a fraud – they were plagerized form some french and german novels written in the 1860’s and ’70’s – respun and marketed as written by some guy that barely escaped some jail in Russia around the turn of the century. The Nazi’s had their children study these papers as truth in school so they would know about the evil plot the jews had for taking over the whole world and getting it all ready for the messiah to show up and rule it all and were taught that the Nazis were the only hope to stop the evil plot -
One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them,
One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them…
…er something like that…

And now that the Nazi’s are gone – the muslims cling to them, and conspiracy theorists. ok? moving on.

Why would I read such a thing? Because I think it is important to know why people feel the way they do. If people are believing a lie – then I want to know why the lie is so attractive. and goodness…it is a piece of work. almost a piece of art – like a meticulously, impressively sculpted dog turd.
I love old writing – I love the words they choose to convey an idea. wordsmiths of hundred or so years ago were so careful. On the outset I admire the workmanship. It is an amazing piece of propaganda. Striking on all kinds of fears and being vague enough to be applicable to any time period since it was written.

But the substance is all crap. It is about 50 pages long. Takes a bit of work to read through because our brains are not trained to the language of the time, also there are some lazy errors in sentence structure. Which is irritating for me to find in a document that is 100-150 years old.
The premise is that this guy got these notes from a secret meeting of zionist who have been trying to rule the world since the reign of Solomon (I think).

Their plan in a nut shell is to control all the money of the world, the education of the world, the media of the world and the governments of the world making everyone poor and stupid and disgruntled and then screw everything up so badly that no one will be able to find the truth or even have the intelligence or desire to look for it. People will beg for a one world government.

Ok so the question is if the papers are a work of imagination…then how is so much of it spot on? well..someone had to write them. the idea did not appear out of thin air. But they are no way in line with Torah. So assigning their authorship to zionist was just done so everyone would be pissed off and suspicious of the jewish people and the nazi’s would have justification for killing six million of them.
And now the muslims can use it in the same way. damn.

Which leaves us to the conclusion that who ever put them together was an enemy of the jews and wants the whole world to hate them.
How ever…if you were to rename this little bit of work – the protocols of the learned elders of the elite. that would be something…

Had a full day yesterday. I would have written yesterday, but we got home late.

And my poor sister – I did not know it until the end of the day – but she had a horrid toothache all day long. She was up all night before with it – our family is not so good with the teeth – mostly because everyone had to (or still does) work a cruddy job with no benifits. So no dentist. Until it is an emergency – PSA: this is a bad way to take care of yourself!

We got ourselves ready and headed south –
I have never been to the Safari Park and everyone was looking forward to a fun day. It was bee-you-tea-full weather. Of course compared to my house right now – where we are having 50 MPH wind – not quite as nice as yesterday.
In Escondido it was sunny and warm – look at this place! And Bonus – there was almost no one there! No lines – no crowds. Hey – this picture is clickable and it is big!
We rode the tram through the African Plains of Southern California! We saw the bird show! We tried to feed the giraffe – but they were brats. The kids ate slushies – so they had purple and orange faces. We pet the goats in the petting zoo – sure I can pet goats all day at home. Ya know why? Because I like them! So I had to visit with the zoo goats too! My kid was all ready to go home with these awesome kids he met at the park. They were so cute and polite. Their mom was pretty awesome too. She kept us from getting lost. The Safari park is like one huge maze with many dead ends – before we found her we spent 30 minutes trying to find the giraffes. Danny and his new friends had a great time hanging around together!
He was disappointed when they had to leave – we hung out a little longer and wandered around some more. I could not get over how empty the place was with such nice weather – once kidding season gets here (March) I will be chained to the goat shed again and I imagine not too long after that this place will be flooded with a thousand people and 95 degree weather – I am so happy we went yesterday. We saw a lot of neat things. It was a lovely, relaxing day with good company.

Mindless repetative work.

The other day was tree pruning day. We have a little orchard. The trees are
Pommegranite
Almond
Cherry (grafted three variety)
Apple (grafted three variety)
Pear, Asian
Apricot (love me some Apricot!)
Nectarine (might die this year)
Peach
Plum (2)
Apple Fuji (2)
Apple Anna (from Israel – 2)

We also have grape vines and other stuff growing around the property.
I don’t have a good new picture of the Orchard – but I have this pic from last year when a Joshua tree decided to fall on the baby trees – the plum tree that took the worst of it is fine this year. We had built cages around the trees in hopes of saving some of the fruit from the birds and squirrels – but sadly the late frost stole it from all of us.

The orchard is just a bunch of sticks in the ground right now, so I set out to prune them. You have no idea how precious a tree in the desert is – even a spiky Joshua tree provides a piece of shade. But I know if the fruit trees get too tall – I can kiss any hope of pickable fruit goodbye. I am not that tall – I need to be able to reach it with my hand.
Besies we are dealing with a small space here.

Did I ever tell you how I started this whole farming adventure?
Everything we started with has something to do with the bible – I wanted my yard to be a walk through bible.
I have momma hens gathering chicks under their wings

I have grape vines with sweet fruit in the summer.

I have an olive tree (more like a bush)

I have the goats (no lambs though)

So as I go through my yearly routine I have lots of biblical reminders.
Trimming the trees brings tons of verses to mind.
As I am out there trying to decide what to cut back – oh part of me hates it – this nice healthy branch here? Well it is best for the whole tree if I lop it off – the other parts of the tree will be stronger and produce better fruit. I have to be careful with the places that are grafted because they are more delicate. I have to consider the shape and look toward the future to see what will happen if I let this branch grow instead of that branch. I have to remove everything that will cause problems in the future – it is certainly easier to cut the tiny branches that are growing the wrong way. If I decide to let a branch grow for a year to see what happens – I might have to sacrifice a much larger branch later.

And of course I am working alone and it is quiet. It leaves plenty of space for my mind to wander. I am busy, but I am thinking, thankful for the opportunity to be reminded of the bigger picture. I imagine how hard it must be for people who spend all their time at the office or freeway to imagine the work of a vine dresser, or a shepherd, or what kind of blessing the rain is. But we just have to walk out the door and get to work.

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Today I read anna’s post about the twelve sided tribe docedecahedronidon – what-ever it is called. I thought it was such a cool idea – and she linked to the blog where she found the idea and so I thought maybe my computer would let me download the original version with the little symbols for each tribe. And so I started poking and browsing around that lady’s blog it was interesting and I figured I could check it out some more this evening.

Later in the morning we went to a 4-H goat meeting. The goat leader is moving next month and since I am the “assistant goat leader”- it is kind of being assumed that I will take over her position. After the meeting I was talking to some of the other mothers and we were trying to plan our next meeting, the leader wasn’t sure if we could do a Sunday in case anyone had church. Funny thing is the other three ladies in this conversation and myself all consider ourselves “home-churched” which is just a lousy way of saying the only spirituality we have is what we can hobble together from chatting with our friends and mentioning God a few times in conversation. I imagine the other ladies didn’t feel the way I did about the topic and I didn’t say much about it either. But it made me sad to hear.

Also I am reading a book – The Rape of Palestine by William B. Ziff
You can read it free on the internet but it is like..500 pages? I saved it on my computer – I could email it to you if you like. In anycase – it is depressing to me so far. All about how the english went through all this effort (and when I say effort I mean lying and conniving crap) to make sure that arabs and israel – who were actually on quite good terms with each other in the early part of the century, would learn to hate each other and fight forever. I am only on page 100 or so. It is very interesting.

So this evening I am back to poking around on the internet and re-visit the jewish homeschooling blog from earlier and shame on me but based on V’s comment earlier – I thought to look into this ladies POV on the messy antic folks trying to cash in on her Holy Days… and her post made me even sadder. Here is a bit of what she wrote:
I feel so sad for their kids….These kids have no spiritual home – no place within Christianity (which mostly holds that Torah observance was superceded by Jesus’ atonement) or within Judaism (which holds that as believers in Jesus, whatever they call him, they are Christian).
Ha! Lady – I gotta surprise for you – I feel sad for myself. *I* have no spiritual home and I feel like a damn fool half the time for dragging my kid along – although thankfully he is young and puts up with most of my shinanagins without hassle. But I don’t like it. She goes on to say that she thinks Hebrew Christians don’t seem all that lonely, to be honest. Perhaps because there are plenty of them, or perhaps they also participate in Christian churches. To me, they also seem more than a bit smug.
Sad and lonely- usually. I don’t feel like there are plenty of people like me. And I don’t think I am smug – I don’t feel smug I don’t participate in a christian church – despite what anyone on FaceBook says – reading Anna’s blog (though I love it to bits) is not a substitute for “mainstream chrisitanity”. [people...facepalm]
We are not Hannah Montana – we do not get the best of both worlds here.
I feel like I took the plunge to swim away from the shore of churchanity and have no safe harbor. I feel like everywhere I land is going to be full of booby traps. As if just when I get comfortable with an idea I will find something wrong with it.
I feel like I have been swimming for ever. And most days I feel like an idiot.